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three days until 2026. im still not quite sure in what language shhould i write here. english for now.
i dont know what i really want from this website. since i was a little girl i always knew i wanted to spend
a lot of time online.
i have dreams, but i like my life, mostly. i love my boyfriend and i adore my friends. i like dressing up
and playing videogames. i like music, i cant live without it. probably because i like stories.
everytime i think of opening up, a little voice inside me says, They dont care. Why should they?
maybe its just my insecurity talking. yesterday i read a tweet that said something like Why should you
hide when your soul screams for expression. i feel uncomfortable expressing myself, sometimes. but i
like dressing up and dolling up. yesterday i felt eyes on me while i walked down the street. maybe
nobody really looks at me. maybe its just my mind.
i know that if i wanyt to be a singer someday i will stand in a stage, and people will look at me,
not because they wantto , but becauseit would be uncomfortable for them not to. its easier for the
human head to stand still and look forward.